Thank you everyone

Thank you to everyone who checked out the blog the other day.. the messages I received from people were amazing and so very much appreciated.

Keep checking out this blog for updates and pics from all of the fun things we do!

xoxox

Always in our hearts

So this post is much overdo for two reasons 

1. We haven't posted in awhile and 

2. because it's been almost 2 years since we had this horrible experience.

I figured October was a good month for this post as it is 

National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.. 

so here is our story. Not many people aside from our close friends and family know about this but I thought it was time to share to let people know why we feel so blessed to have Madison and it is also to help other people out there going through it.

In April 2010 Chris and I found out we were expecting, our families shocked at first as we were not married became excited to become grandparents and uncles and everything else.. but that happiness quickly turned to sadness. About 4 weeks (May 30th) after we found out we were expecting I started to have severe pains and just an overall feeling that something 

wasn't right.

After a few visits (3 visits in 2 days) to the hospital we finally found out I was suffering a miscarriage. It was probably the worst news I have ever received. I had the hard task of calling Chris and telling him the news. I was 11 weeks pregnant, so of course we already had discussed names and what we couldn't wait to with our child and also our families and already had hopes and dreams for them as well.

May 30th will always have a special place in our hearts as we gained a baby with wings.

June 4th 2010 Chris and I got married and started our life together.

Late October 2010 we once again found out we were expecting this time it was an immediate feeling of happiness followed by an overwhelming feeling of "will the same thing happen".

After going for blood work we found out that my levels were good and I was for sure pregnant and showing that I was about 8 weeks. So near the end of November we went for our 10 week ultrasound to make sure everything was ok with the baby and it was then we received some more devastating news there was no fetal pole. So we had to go back a week later to a specialist and to double check that maybe I wasn't as far along as they had originally thought.

It was then at that appointment we found out that I was suffering another miscarriage and on Monday November 29th I had a D&C to complete the miscarriage. We had some testing done on the tissue and found out that we had been expecting a girl and that were was nothing wrong with the fetus itself. 

I immediately blamed myself for the miscarriage because if there was nothing wrong with the baby then it had to be me.

By talking with other people I began to realize that it was not my fault and that there was nothing we could have done to save our baby.

So now with two little babies watching over us we decided to let things happen naturally if it happens it happens if not then its not meant to be. 

Well Super Bowl Sunday Feb 2011 I found out again we were expecting and due Oct 13th. This time we held out on telling everyone including our family, it was hard enough to deal with our miscarriages privately but to feel the pain of everyone who was excited to have a baby around made it even harder. 

I became very sick and was hospitalized 3 times for dehydration so it was a little hard to keep it from our families. Chris was working the day of our ultrasound but I was very lucky my mom was visiting and she had come with me and was there when we got the most amazing   news.. the baby was there and looked healthy! I was officially 10 weeks pregnant!

Chris and I had agreed to wait until the 12 week mark to tell anyone and so we did..  Everyone found out at the St. Patricks Day Parade! Our friends and family couldn't be happier but at the same time were praying that all would be ok.

After a long and high-risk pregnancy I went into labor October 14th and our gorgeous baby girl Madison Jay Murray was born at 1:52am on October 15 2011. 

It was the moment we had all been waiting for a healthy baby.

October 15th is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.. I can't help but think that her unborn siblings had a part in that. ;)

A friend of ours who didn't know about our miscarriages commented on a picture on Facebook and said "when god was handing out cuteness Madison must have gone back for a few more helpings" I have never told that person just how much that comment meant to me and how much it has helped me certain days. 

Anyways.. that is our story and I hope that everyone can take a moment this month to not only think and say a prayer for everyone who has been effected by Breast Cancer but also all the families who have lost a child be it born or unborn.

Thank you. xo's

GIANTS

Madison is following in the footsteps of the Murray's & Lindgren's .. she is a NY GIANTS FAN .. (Mommy is still hoping she turns out to like the Patriots)  

While at a last night Madison said "Giants" about 4 times in a row and just repeated it for Chris, her die hard giants loving father.  The whole family is beyond thrilled.. now if we could only get her to say "Go Canada" ;)

Hitting double digits!

Happy 10 Months Madison!

xoxox 

mmmm.. burgers

Well it looks like Madison is taking after both parents when it comes to food .. she LOVES cheeseburgers! Yesterday was Chris's FDNY firehouse's annual family picnic and Madison enjoyed all the good food the guys were cooking up.. mom and dad enjoyed it too ;) Along with all the food there was lots of swimming, games and visiting with people we haven't seen in awhile! Ever heard of Kan Jam?? No? Well your missing out then! It might be our next purchase..


Off to clean up our basement.. our new couch is coming this week :)

xo's
The Murrays.

WOW!

As I sit here writing this blog post I am watching Madison in her crib as she is taking steps by herself! It is so amazing to be able to watch her grow and learn new things! I only have a few minutes to write this blog as she is finished her nap and clearly ready to get down on the floor and play!

The past few weeks have been very hectic around here and I haven't really been able to update the blog as much as I had planned to originally and for that I am sorry! I have cut down my time at the restaurant to spend more time with Madison which in turn gives me more time to update this blog and another blog I have started working on. In the past few months since starting this blog I have noticed that we have been making a little money from it. And this was NOT at all the reason why we started the blog, but it is the reason I am starting the new one. I can't give away to many details right now but in the next month or so you will all know what all the fuss is about.!

Hope everyone is having an amazing summer and taking time out to enjoy the nice weather with friends with family! 

Big steps!

Sorry it's been awhile folks! We've been busy growing and learning! The biggest thing since our last post is ... Madison's first step!!!

Hope everyone is enjoying their summer!
Xo