Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Pregnancy after a loss...

Last year I wrote a super personal post about the miscarriages we suffered before having Madison, you can read the post here (

So I feel it's time for another personal post, this isn't something I like to discuss in depth with people because it brings up a lot of emotions... We have always been very open about our miscarriages and will continue to be, but deciding to try again for a baby after Madison was one of the most difficult decisions we have made.

Chris and I both had some reservations about trying again mainly what if...?, Chris was a little more relaxed and was more what happens happens, where I on the other hand was very nervous and didn't know if I could handle that possibility again. If it were up to Chris we would have started trying before Madison turned 1, but I was to nervous.  

It took a lot of talking to my parents, my friends and Chris as well as our doctor to convince me that it was ok to try. In the spring I was finally in a place mentally that I could say I am ready! I know some people may wonder why would you think about something so bad so much, to me it wasn't thinking about the bad possibilities, it was thinking if I could mentally handle the possibilities, could I be there for my husband, could I still be a great mom to Madison, can I take care of myself?

Starting or expanding a family is not something that should be taken lightly no matter what your situation is. So far we have been so blessed with this pregnancy it has been super easy compared to Madison, but we can't help but breath a sigh of relieve at each milestone.. The positive test, the fabulous bloodwork, the first time hearing the heartbeat, the 13 week mark, the half way point and I know the 3rd trimester and having this little love bug will other big milestones!

I had said after Madison I was not planning on having any other children because of our history and how hard of a pregnancy I had but I think taking the 1.5 years to think about it, settle into life as a mother and really weigh the options was the best for us. 

Since it is infant and pregnancy loss awareness month lets just take a minute to remember our 2 angels in heaven 


Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Halfway, 50%,..20 weeks

However you want to say it we are halfway through the pregnancy .. 20 down 20 to go 
How far along are you? 20 weeks 
Have you started to show? Yes!
Total weight gain: 7lbs
Maternity clothes? Yes, leggings which are the most comfortable things and some top.. I can still fit my normal clothes 
Stretch marks?  Just what's left over from Madison 
Sleep: yes! 
Best moment this week: Our anatomy scan, getting 20 minutes to see our little love bug. With Madison we had a single vessel cord so this time we were concerned about that again BUT no worries we have a normal cord :) 
Miss Anything? Running ... To much time on my feet makes my sciatic unbearable 
Movement: yes, hopefully Chris and Madison can feel it soon!
Food cravings: ham, cheese and mustard paininis 
Anything making you queasy or sick: the deep coughing sound .. Makes me gag 
Gender predictions: I'm still thinking boy .. This has been so different compared to Madison, Chris thinks girl. .. 20 weeks and we will see!
Labor Signs: no .. Let's keep it that way!
Symptoms: just some sciatic nerve pain
Belly Button in or out? In .. Never popped with Madison.
Wedding rings on or off? on.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy 
Looking forward to: not feeling guilty about sneaking an extra Halloween treat.

Other news ... Waiting for a closing date on our current house so we are slowly packing up all of our stuff. It's amazing what you accumulate in 3.5 years of living together!!

Also waiting for our computer to get fixed so I can take all my pictures of our camera and update you on all the fall fun, candian thanksgiving, Madison's 2nd birthday, our visit to Boo at the Zoo and our visit to the pumpkin patch!! Hopefully it will be fixed in the next 2 weeks before I get to far behind!

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Madness I tell you .. Madness

Our life has been crazy this week ... Between thanksgiving in Canada , a special little lady turning 2 and the need to pack our home for the move I haven't found a free moment to update you all. I PROMISE and update is coming .. Tomorrow (Sunday October 20) probably in the evening as we are going to Boo at the Zoo in the morning.

Hope your all enjoying the fall weather ... Back to packing after I get my pumpkin latte ;) ... But here is a picture of Madison helping Opa make waffles while we were in Canada.

Monday, October 7, 2013

Cookies, cookies and more cookies!!

Anyone who knows me knows I love to bake! Cookies, cupcakes, brownies ... Anything! I swear I am destined to be a baker .. In all that spare time I have.  
Well this Saturday I finally let my little Cookie Monster help make some yummy chocolate chip cookies!
I measured everything out, put them into cups and let Madison mix all the ingredients together! It was such a fun thing for us to do together. Madison had fun and was very happy when she got to eat a cookie she worked so hard to make!
She even snuck a chocolate chip ... I wonder who she learnt that from ;) 

It was such a fun experience/ experiment baking with a toddler .. I can't wait until the next time! Maybe some birthday cupcakes for the princess?

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

16 weeks down!

How far along are you? 16 weeks
Have you started to show? Yes It's starting to look for like a pregnancy bump and not just a weight gain
Total weight gain: 4lbs... But according to the docs I've only gained 1 lbs? 
Maternity clothes? A couple tank tops and a few shirts but most of the time normal clothes!
Stretch marks?  Just what's left over from Madison 
Sleep: yes! Finally getting sleep! 
Best moment this week: Finding out our offer on a new house was accepted. And seeing our lazy baby Murray in our ultrasound!!
Miss Anything? Baths! I can only shower .. Sitting in a bath makes my sciatic nerve much worse
Movement: feeling little flutters but the baby seems very lazy during the ultrasounds 
Food cravings: was craving bubba bites-bubba style from bubbas.. Thankfully Chris likes them to and got them :) and good thing because bubbas closed down on Sunday night!
Anything making you queasy or sick: random smells 
Gender predictions: I'm thinking boy .. One grandma is team blue the other is team pink 
Labor Signs: no .. Let's keep it that way!!
Symptoms: just some sciatic nerve pain
Belly Button in or out? In .. Never popped with Madison.
Wedding rings on or off? on.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy 
Looking forward to: feeling some kicks!!!